being the child who survived.
musing on my 5H saturn
{before continuing to read, this post carries content warnings for suicide}
saturn has taught me the true value of my human experience by consistently reminding me that it’s going to end one day.
and i’ve known this for as long as i can remember. i’ve known so many of the realities of this life just by being born into the material circumstances that existed long before me. i’ve been close with death as soon as i arrived.